Browsing All posts tagged under »discouragement«

10 Minutes in a Hurricane

January 29, 2012


My second son loves factoids. Any time I’m still, as in fixing a meal, he reads me any that he finds interesting. He has an app for that. “Wow,” he said, then shared his newest discovery with me. “Ten minutes in a hurricane releases as much energy as would the detonation of all the world’s […]

Hard Days

January 22, 2012


Everyone has them. Yesterday afternoon I found myself sitting on the corner of my bed staring into the darkness, trying to feel something, anything. I let warm tears course down my cheeks as I finally surrendered to the lostness that has been creeping after me for a very long time, waiting for an easy moment. […]

The Adversary of My Soul

January 13, 2012


My nerves have been jangled most of the day. It’s fallout from a family conflict earlier, one of the things I detest more than anything else. My home is a haven and very often an extension of my inner environment, and infighting is like releasing a supervirus. I’ve long thought that harboring disdain and the […]

I Need Help

December 19, 2011


My son sat brooding at the computer, trapped between a call from the school letting me know that he would fail both English and History if he didn’t turn in his junior research paper and a mother who, for crying out loud, is a writer. Resentment emanated from him in sharp breaths exploding without warning, […]

The Battle of Bedford Falls

November 30, 2011


Life takes turns that we would not have chosen, frequently leaving us with less than we need to do what we need to do. I am reading Rough Stone Rolling, a delightful biography of Joseph Smith, and a different picture of the man more than 13 million living souls revere as prophet than they might […]

Get Miracled

November 28, 2011


I think the Lord delights in setting up impossibilities. I used to call it “chicken,” meaning that it felt like I was faced off against him and we were heading straight for each other at breakneck speed. Of course, he being perfected, all-knowing, and omnipotent, I was going to be the first one to dive […]

For Such a Time as This

November 21, 2011


Each visit of my sweet mother brings stories I’d never heard. Today I sat across from her at a busy buffet window table, and learned why she is still Mormon. Many years ago my parents suffered through hard times exacerbated by the fragility of youth and a genesis absent faith, for my parents found the […]