Browsing All posts tagged under »discouragement«

10 Minutes in a Hurricane

January 29, 2012

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My second son loves factoids. Any time I’m still, as in fixing a meal, he reads me any that he finds interesting. He has an app for that. “Wow,” he said, then shared his newest discovery with me. “Ten minutes in a hurricane releases as much energy as would the detonation of all the world’s […]

Hard Days

January 22, 2012

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Everyone has them. Yesterday afternoon I found myself sitting on the corner of my bed staring into the darkness, trying to feel something, anything. I let warm tears course down my cheeks as I finally surrendered to the lostness that has been creeping after me for a very long time, waiting for an easy moment. […]

The Adversary of My Soul

January 13, 2012

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My nerves have been jangled most of the day. It’s fallout from a family conflict earlier, one of the things I detest more than anything else. My home is a haven and very often an extension of my inner environment, and infighting is like releasing a supervirus. I’ve long thought that harboring disdain and the […]

I Need Help

December 19, 2011

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My son sat brooding at the computer, trapped between a call from the school letting me know that he would fail both English and History if he didn’t turn in his junior research paper and a mother who, for crying out loud, is a writer. Resentment emanated from him in sharp breaths exploding without warning, […]

The Battle of Bedford Falls

November 30, 2011

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Life takes turns that we would not have chosen, frequently leaving us with less than we need to do what we need to do. I am reading Rough Stone Rolling, a delightful biography of Joseph Smith, and a different picture of the man more than 13 million living souls revere as prophet than they might […]

Get Miracled

November 28, 2011

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I think the Lord delights in setting up impossibilities. I used to call it “chicken,” meaning that it felt like I was faced off against him and we were heading straight for each other at breakneck speed. Of course, he being perfected, all-knowing, and omnipotent, I was going to be the first one to dive […]

For Such a Time as This

November 21, 2011

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Each visit of my sweet mother brings stories I’d never heard. Today I sat across from her at a busy buffet window table, and learned why she is still Mormon. Many years ago my parents suffered through hard times exacerbated by the fragility of youth and a genesis absent faith, for my parents found the […]